Based on my books, it’s clear that I am fascinated by time, but now I’m also tortured by it as well. Over the last ten months I’ve become unhinged when it comes to the passing of time. Am I being melodramatic? I don’t think so. I’m curious to know if anyone else has had the long-term sensation that I’m dealing with.
Ever since my wife passed away four months ago, my perception of time is off. My perception of the passing of days and weeks is completely wrong. At times, I have different perceptions of the amount of time that passes in a day. Right now I’m in California visiting my son and although I’ve been here for 36 hours, it feels like ten days have passed. I remember a few months ago when someone asked me how long it had been since my wife passed away and I wanted to say 6 weeks when it had only been two weeks.
During the several months that she was hospitalized or in hospice, my time was filled every minute. I was either taking care of her or rushing to do my job while constantly checking on her or assisting with her care. So, for the better part of eight months I was feeling time pressure all the time. It’s been four months and I still don’t feel like time is passing correctly in my brain. Has anyone else felt like this?
In early August I took four days off from work to just relax, and take care of things that had been neglected for months. I hoped that would help me reset my brain in relation to my perception of time. Nope. I often wake up with no idea what day it is. Events from the previous day seem like distant memories.
Now of course, being in California, three time zones away from home, my perception of what time it is as well as when time is feels skewed. Has anyone ever dealt with this type of situation? If so, how did you cope with it?
Also, am I opportunistically using my current malady to maybe sell a couple books? Will this episode of my life lead to another time travel book? Shouldn’t I be inundating you with paranormal posts during the the next couple weeks? Probably yes to all three questions, but I swear that I am being plagued by an unglued perception of time and would appreciate any feedback or suggestions.
Happy Sunday from whenever I am! Thanks for reading, Phil
