Pic from Istock photos
Some of you may have noticed that I’ve been quiet the last couple months. My wife, who over the last twenty-five years has had cancer for more years than not, passed away this past weekend. I’m not here to moan and mope. But I am here to have someone to talk to. That’s one of the things that surprised me. Suddenly there was a hole in my life in a way I hadn’t anticipated. And you’re going to fill that hole for me occasionally.
I now live alone in my house. I’m not completely alone though. I do have my cat, Rory, but he’s not much of a conversationalist. He’s a great cat, but he doesn’t seem interested in my random chit-chat. So, occasionally, I’ll talk to you, telling you those little things that seem meaningless, like that I had dinner with Liam and Sophia last night and they seem to have a little mouse problem in their house.
Was that a poltergeist, or just really kick-ass hi-def tv?
Also, I think I may be haunted by my recently deceased wife. To me, personality-wise, she seems like she’d be a haunter. Also, a couple months ago I told her that when she passes away she better haunt me. Today, I think she started.
My wife was a Nurse Practitioner, and she would have loved to wear this shirt at Halloween.
Why do I think that she started haunting me today? I was sitting in my home office and I went looking in the closet for something, in the back I found my backpack that had my ghost hunting tools in it. I pulled one out to see if it still had battery power, which it did. It didn’t detect anything, so I tossed it back in the backpack and sat down at my desk.
I sat down reached into my pocket for my phone and when I pulled it out, it was open to Instagram and a paranormal investigator was in the middle of broadcasting live in Stories. I listened for a bit and then as soon as I closed it, all the lights in the room blinked. That shouldn’t happen. Last fall I had a whole, new electric panel put in my house. I could run all the electricity in New York State off of my house. But there it was; an electric blink that shouldn’t have been there just a moment after I was thinking of my wife and the paranormal.
Following my uber successful lifetime philosophy of “I don’t see how anything could possibly go wrong!”, all alone, I’m going to do a full paranormal investigation of my house tonight. I’m pulling out the dowsing rods, my EMF meter, Spirit Box (that’s the static thing they always listen to), tarot cards, and my laser array. If I can’t catch her haunting me with all that, then she isn’t here. Who thinks that I should also film it and put it on YouTube? This sounds like the beginning of a paranormal movie that ends badly, doesn’t it. Hey, but what if we do the pottery thing from Ghost ?
Stay tuned! Thanks for reading. I’d love to hear your thoughts on this ~Phil
I’m so sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Thank you Jen!
Oh Phil, I’m so sorry to hear about Mrs. Phil. Wishing you peace and well-being as you navigate your new normal.
Thank you Kimberly
I’ve been thinking about you a lot over the past few days and wondering how you’re doing. We prepare ourselves to an extent to lose our parents but our spouse is a different story. My spouse doesn’t have cancer but he has had multiple strokes which have affected his mobility and cognitive function. I think a lot about how I will function without him. I’m so sorry you had to lose your wife and I hope you have lots of love and support from your family and friends. Even if your ghost hunting turns up empty, know that she is with you always and is probably purposely messing with your instruments. Sending you best wishes and a hug.
Thank you Becky
Oh Phil, this has made me cry, and I’m not usually a crier. (Or rather I am, but generally at inappropriate things: I can happily watch films featuring serial killers but will cry for a week if someone is a bit mean to a cat or a dog.) I’m so sorry to hear your news. If your wife had your kind of sense of humour, I can imagine her doing all sorts of weird shit in your house, just for the comedy value. And, in a strange way, if you do conduct a paranormal investigation, I see that as a witty and heartfelt tribute to her. Sending you all our love. ❤️
I’m sorry that I made you cry. I can imagine that if she is still here she will give me signs now and then.
Oh no, don’t apologise at all! I hope you get the signs that you are looking for. It sounds like you’ve had a few of them already! Was your wife as into the paranormal as you?
So very sorry for your loss Phil. And if blogging communication can alleviate even a tiny part of your grief? I’m all in.
And while I think it’s fascinating you have all that ghostly equipment, to be honest…. I think I’d rather leave your house untested and believe your wife is still with you by continuing to read the signs. Do you really want definitive proof she’s gone? Sometimes it’s better to simply feel, than to know.
❤️
Thank you so much for your kind words. But what if the proof is that she’s not gone?
That would be great, but personally I wouldn’t want to take the chance….
Messages from beyond always fascinated me. I hope it brings you the love and comfort you need now and into the future. Keep looking for the signs!
So incredibly sorry for your loss. Sending prayers your way.
I’m so sorry for your loss, Phil. I missed this post and was reading today’s and needed to check back. Please accept my wish that memories of your life together will help ease your pain eventually.
Thank you John